I remember the promises that you told me before. Apparently, you don’t remember, and you don’t care. How can others trust you, and how can you ask them to follow you?
I know it’s not easy being a professor. However, when you are a professor, how can you change your mind again and again? You always put your students in tough situations, and you see how they struggle in those situations. You never change, even sometimes you are aware of their feelings, you just show a bit of kindness. Then you forgot why they don’t trust you anymore. Remember before you said your dream is to let us finish our thesis project in the first year and take it easy in the second year. But the fact is that I’ve done many different experiments which didn’t produce any results, which wasted my time. I agree that we need to try experiments, but you still blamed us for the failures. You also made me change the goal for my thesis multiple times. This also happened in my second year, when I was supposed to be relaxing, according to you. Now I’m rushing to complete my thesis, making me stay up late and be unhappy. Now that I know you more, I know it’s impossible that you would allow us to relax, because we would have nothing to do. You view us as employees because you pay us a tiny amount of money, so there’s no way you would let us relax in the second year.
You always say things are easy. I think it’s because you do not do those things. All those things you think are easy is just because you just ask other people to do. I agree that it’s a kind of “training,” but what I get from the training is that your leadership never improves or changes, just your requirements for projects always changes. You never have clear direction, because you ask us to think and find the direction for you. I agree that’s important, but it depend on the situation. When there’s not enough time to do that “training,” and for master students, I think we need a good leader with comprehensive plan, at least for most parts. It’s important to help your students, not leave them stranded without a paddle.
Every discussion you have with your students turns into an argument. You also don’t get along with your graduated PhD students. They never want anything to do with you when they graduate and leave. You told me this and I didn’t think too much about it, I should think more about these kinds of things. You have told me that I’m a kind of “rebel” and I don’t listen to authority. I don’t care what you think of me, I just want to get through my program and leave quickly. I definitely won’t have any connection with you after leaving.
I want to leave ASAP.